Sometimes I can still hear the honks and motorcycles buzzing in and out of traffic, the mandarin chattering all around me packed in a subway train, the overwhelming smells of so Asian spices amidst bowls of hot noodles cooking alongside busy uneven walkway of people rushing by. The sights and sounds of china are deeply seeped into my soul now. I miss china, I miss the beautiful people and the culture that surrounds you the minute you step off the plane.
Of course I miss the beautiful country that two of my children came from. One would say I left my heart there. This is not only where I left my heart but where my heart was wrecked.
I imagine and I honestly HOPE that it is always this "fresh" in my soul. That I will always long to go back, to give back to the place that gave me two of the biggest blessings ever!
This is not a post to advocate for the millions of orphans still left in china. but more of a plea, or a message to please don't forget that which the Lord has called you.
For many years I struggled with the thought of adopting a child. I knew the Lord was growing the desire in my heart long before he ever brought it to fruition. Along with this longing came the longing for china. He began showing me time and time again that my love for china, my heart strings were constantly being pulled towards anything adoption ( books, blogs, other adoptive families ect, a particular person or new friendship made) where not for nothing. One day these two "callings" collided and sent our family on a path to bring home two children that were born to two different women an ocean away.
And HE took us to a land we would have never seen had it been for the two children he so loudly called us to adopt. Falling in love with China was easy for me. Because it was familiar, my heart recognized and felt so connected by the time we landed on china soil our first trip that I felt as if I just about almost been there before......
I feel like it was just yesterday I was walking the streets of china with my new daughters hand in mine. But instead of walking to get rice and dumplings we are walking into another doctors office. The smells and sounds of a hustling china have been replaced with doctors appointments, medical test, carpool, school engagements, and juggling every day life.
We now have a "new normal" that we are ALL still getting use to. Its been almost 4 months since we brought our Brighton Mae home. 4 months since the Lord wrecked my heart all over again for the Fatherless. But most days these thoughts fall to the wayside due to the daily demands of raising a family. It's been a bit of a juggling act parenting 4 kids in 4 completely different places in life. I think that's been one of the hardest parts of our "re-entry" here once we stepped of that plane just a few months ago. The fact all 4 kids have completely different places in their sweet lives we are helping them navigate right now.
But my heart still aches for the ones left behind. The ones that still wait to come home to their families and have a first day of school, a first birthday party, a first appointment with a specialist who knows how to help them. They are waiting on a sibling to come play with them, a momma to rock them at night. If you follow my blog this is not a new message for you. I have always tried to raise awareness of the fact there are millions of orphans around the world who need families. But i wonder if someone reading this knows they could possibly be missing watching a child learn to skip, eat ice cream for the fist time, go to the beach, go to school, hug their siblings. I often think back on my the days we had before our Regis and Brighton joined our family. Particular days like holidays. What were they doing while I was opening presents on Christmas?
That wrecks me. Because they weren't with US, they were separated from us. Much like our Heavenly fathers heart aches when we are separated from him I would think his heart is pretty wrecked his children are separate from the families that are suppose to come for them. He protects them yes, much like he did with our two china blessings. He held them in his hands till we were able to come and get them. Especially our Brighton who is a walking Miracle. He could have taken her home to live with him years ago in a hospital following a heart surgery and stroke, But he choose to keep her here on earth. And if you have met our sweet girl you know why- she brings joy to ALL who meet her.
What if we had missed that JOY?
what if she was still waiting on us to get our act together, take a leap, a step of faith... I shutter to think what our lives would be like without the joy she has brought us.
Who needs to walk the streets of a place like china and take in the sights and sounds all the while taking in a child who needs the love of a family? Who needs to come alongside an adopting family and support them financially, knowing that you may not be called your self to adopt but we are all called to help orphans in one way or another. Who reading this need to visit their local Foster care office in their town and sign up to foster one of the millions of kids here that need the love of a family. Who knows of a situation where you could bring in a precious child who has been looked over time and time again and has waited entirely too long for a family.....
Who wants to experience a little bit of heaven in the form of redeeming the life of a child?